Letters from Two Potential Moms

There was a letter posted of a Mom who planned to abort her child.  

Here is a letter from a daughter of mine who responded

Little One,

I have never felt you in there.  I still have my same energy and appetite.  But it breaks my heart that once again I won’t feel your life growing.  I am sorry and sad for both of us

I am sorry that we must wait another cycle.  I was pretty sure this was the one.  Your father and I timed it perfectly.  In fact, we had been pretty consistent all week long.  Then my temperature went up indicating that now all we could do was wait.  We waited 13 days.  Had it been 18 days, we would’ve known you were there, if even for the barest of a moment.  But 13 days meant that you had never come.

I am so sorry for the four months of birth control I took.   Had I known you would’ve been so hurt, I would never have taken it.   After one year of you taking no notice of our longing to have you, we started going through fertility treatments. I stopped eating sugar to help with my developing PCOS and now I take vitamins to maintain a healthy hormone balance.   We figured you would come along after seeing how hard we were trying.  But to no avail.   

Your life is precious to me.  I dream every day, week, month that you will come into our family.  I even have some baby clothes picked out for you and some binkies I think you will like.  Your dad wants to name you after him.  But I have a name picked out for you in case you are a girl. 

I really hope the waiting will soon be over.  Your cousins are waiting for you.  It won’t be long till they are three, or is it four?  Oh my goodness, has it been five years?? 

I love you, Little One, but I hope our circumstances are different.  My biological clock is ticking.  I hope you come soon.  But if not…maybe another mom will let me be…your mom.

-Your Mom-to-be